Back To Square One

I've just hit this crazy level where insane amount of synthetic hormones meets rough day. The kind of day where the only thing left to do is devour an entire box of chocolates, curl up under a heated blanket, and wish for your mom to snuggle you.

After 32 days of daily injections and medications (and 13 added pounds!), we're pretty much back to square one. After a misunderstanding on which lab to use for bloodwork, we are required to start over on the paperwork we've been waiting for for 8 weeks. It'll cost another $1,150 that we don't have. :'(

I'm not sleeping well as I wait for updates from my family in Ukraine....news of the adoptions, news of war with Russia, ANY news from them to know they are well, and the stress of trying desperately to raise the last 18 thousand dollars in only three or four weeks time. The recent pictures of a VERY joyful Julia with her new parents keeps us going.

But I'm weary....in body, mind, and spirit. Please continue to pray for us all.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow was supposed to be the big day, transfer day....as in transfer the embryos from a frozen tube into my body and pray for miracles. It's also a big day for the entire family as referrals are received for the adoption of my two nephews and precious niece. Three teenagers giving up the only life they've ever known for just a CHANCE at something better.

I'm thankful now that my transfer is delayed. I'm filled with nervousness and anxiety over the three kids. I can hardly move from the pain and stiffness in my back, headache, nausea, shaking uncontrollably all over as if it's freezing cold. It's just how my body reacted when we were waiting to hear if we passed court with Henok 6.5 years ago. I nearly fainted at the news that he was ours.

Please keep our families and the kids in your prayers over the next two weeks of travel and paperwork.

Milestones and Deadlines

It's been three quick weeks since starting the meds/injections needed to prepare my body. So far, all milestones have been met or exceeded! I'm so glad for this steady encouraging news! The official FET (frozen embryo transfer) is tentatively scheduled for one week from TODAY! EEEK!

There are a few things we're waiting on. Please pray for another miracle and that all the documents are in by tomorrow. The doctor can sustain me on current hormones for only a few days extra (and change the FET date) in hopes of the documents coming in, but otherwise, I'll have to abandon all efforts and start over from scratch in a couple of months. Of course, this will add a great deal more to our expenses.

Trying my best to put on my positive attitude and a bright smile, but the hormones have me a *bit* emotional (and with all that's going on with Julia and the boys). In any case, it's beyond my control, so we'll just go along for the ride as always.

Hanging On

"Some side effects may include but are not limited to: vision changes, swelling, and rapid weight gain."

Greeeeeat.....at least that explains the sudden 12 pounds in the last two weeks! Augh! I'll now officially be making pajamas my daily wear. Four more weeks until we know more. At this rate, I can expect a weight gain of 36 pounds if NOT pregnant. NOOOOOOO!!!!! 

Thank you, Satan, for adding insult to injury, but I LOVE pajamas and staying home. More time to advocate for orphans, so the joke's on you.